Sunday, January 4, 2009

You can never go home again.

In nine months or so, I'll face those who were so instrumental towards my opinions of myself. It's the one hundred eighty-some-odd people with whom I shared a graduation stage. It's been nearly ten years since I've seen most of them, yet I think about them daily. Our upbringing determines my daily actions. I become a successful interior designer and lead a jet-set life because they married young, bore several children, and never left home. I am determined to shed the extra twenty pounds because they didn't. For as mousy and unnoticed as I was then, I'm determined not to be now.

I know it's horrible and I know it's vain, but it's something that I've been thinking of since May 21, 1999. What I'm starting to wonder, is what happens the day after? How will I feel then?

1 comment:

Unknown said...

Oh wow. Well put.

*cheers from the bleachers*
and much love